
NUR
AINI SULAIMAN ♥
temasek
polytechnic
s
tudent
information technology
nineteen 88 ♥
♥♥
dun expect too much
from me
ENJOYS endless walking
i want: to wake up really late on SATURDAY and SUNDAY
i eat: banana, pisang goreng, banana split, kerepek pisang, pengat pisang & banana leaf
i hate: alarm clock, handphones and sleeping w/o the radio turned on
i love: walking and people that love me
i can't: cook
i can:hardly make a decision
i drink: water (fullstop)
i live for: my future
i wish: for a long and healthy life for every single person i know
i play: a fool
you are: my rival, my friend, my family & my lover
so: erm..let's have breakfast together? Ohh, maybe lunch?
Sunday, October 11 at 3:20 AM
Facebook, im so gonna crush you down!
Why?? Why Facebook? Why must it be you?? Im so hating it right now. Grrr.. I feel exposed, i feel people are all KPO and i am disgusted with the fact that i am actually kpo about their lives too. Looking at their photos, looking at their wall posts..i felt too much. Some are boasting, some are over emphasising their happy life like there is some kind of competition on who got the most happy life. So it makes me question myself, am I jealous or what. If i am, why should i be? Yah, why Aini???
I’ve told myself that when i joined facebook, im only gonna post pictures for pple who wants them. But i got curious and started to find pple i know and added them. Some are friends that i’ve not been keeping in touch for so long. Some are the ones that i had conflicts before. I just wanted to know what they are up to now...but facebook allows me to find out a lot more. And i have to think 2, 3, 4... 5 times before i publish any pictures or any posts coz pple might have opinions, being judgmental or unsatisfied. Going in to Facebook, I felt sick and sometimes afraid and it’s totally unnecessary.
And im really glad that my blog is much much more on a low profile. That’s why i dare to write this up. There are only a few who knew that my blog exists.....Liya, Azreen, Shiqin and a few other classmates, and also Nurul, Farah, Wani, Hani and Rehman. That’s it. My cousins from my dad side don’t have any clue at all. My brother doesn’t know. Neither do my friends out of TP. And what i’ve talked about earlier concerns pple who dun have my blog link. Coz those pple knows all about me. Too much until sometimes i felt embarrassed with them. They’ve seen me angry. They’ve seen my tears, all about me that is bad and ugly. They just know too much. And i feel that they dun have to know anything more. So.. im free to talk about my feelings toward them. Freedom of speech is mine.
Im gonna stop here coz if i go on i’ll be having doubts to post this up later on. It’s just...during times like this, i just wish that this world, on this century that i live in, is not, in reality.... technologically advance. I wanna live in the cave.
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